my thoughts on this

* I haven't write for so long. excuse my crappy english. XD

I'm not a religious person. I know enough to pray and this and that. I never pretend that I am, because I know just how thin my knowledge in Islam is.  Just like any normal human being, deprive of 'sifat maksum', I have committed a lot of sins over the years. Not proud of it, but I'm learning and taking baby steps. Yes, I seek redemption.

I tried not to be judgemental. I hate it when people judge someone and brush it off just like that. It's like, forcing someone to wear hijab is a no-no for me. You need to take it slow, instilled the love into someone. I once had a boyfriend who drinks alcohol. I hated it. I prayed for him to stop, and made him promise me to stop. But he didn't. He stopped because of me. Once he was angry with me, he would do it again. Hence, if you try to change someone, forcing is not the way. 

As I said I wasn't a religious muslim. what I am is - a forgetful muslim. I always forgot to thank Allah for the blessings and everything. Until one day, I still remember that very day. I wasn't thinking straight. I felt like I'm dying. It's like everything turned against me and I was hurting. A friend, a close friend, talked to me. she said just how lucky I was that god still gave me chance to come back to HIM. to repent and to remember him. She was right, Even after all this, ALLAH never bail on me. HE was there for me. It's up for me. To remember HIM, to seek guidance from HIM. I was a changed person. I refused to take life for granted. the life that ALLAH let me enjoy. This person, my best friend. she never force me to change. I have other people try to change me back then. but none works. All this friend did was talked to me softly and made me remember who I am.

During Ramadhan. I have one 'pious' friend who wonders how is it that people fast but didn't wear hijab. here's my answer for her. things didn't change overnight. if you're a muslim who wants to make a change, you approach them softly. You don't humiliate them and judge them. Just like a wise friend of mine once said and I quote "u can't judge someone's faith based on what they do as a muslim".  It's like just because one wears a hijab, doesn't make that person a pious muslims. considering if she still badmouth others, disobey her parents and hold hands with their boyfriend. and just because a person doesn't wear hijab doesn't make her a bad muslim, especially if she prays and take good care of her parents. Hijab is not accessories or fashion. It's a must to all muslim. Yes, sometimes I wear them. But I always make sure that i didn't wear any short sleeves shirts and tight fitting clothings. Wearing Hijab is all about modesty. if you wear hijab and a tight-fitting clothes, there's nothing modest about that. 

I pray that one day I'm going to wear it again. but first, I would have to discard all those tshirts. XD. Just set your nawaitu right. you don't change because of a person. you change because you're a muslim and for the fear of hellfire.